So I am having fun and they all say, “Just follow your passions and life will find you!” But I still have that longing, that requirement to be intimately engaged with one other person. To be joyfully entwined with them and all their interesting foibles and have them lovingly entwined with me and all my […]
unconditional trust
Normalization?
Life is beginning to make itself fuller with more activities to choose from. I am told this is how ABUNDANCE shows up! With these happenings I begin to wade back into the stream of life. But I want to be mindful as the waters rise. Dog paddling through meaningless minutia is NOT part of this girl’s […]
Good Words Found
Love is a sacrament. Beauty is a sacrament. Peace is a sacrament. Creativity is a sacrament. These things course through us just as surely as our blood. These are our sacred bonds with the divine and with each other: they are sacraments administered by the divine through the human. By manifesting these divine energies, we […]
2013 Grief Olympics
Here is a recount made last year to a friend about things as they were unfolding for me then. Remembering where I was gives me clarity on how far I have come! “I made it past 3 of the 4 challenging events – Mike’s B-Day, my B-Day and the fact that my B-Day was such a milestone […]
I Love You Universe!
I am having a real tough realization today. It is rather embarrassing and I feel really raw but the TRUTH does that to us – doesn’t it?! Found out last nite that ‘my crush’ has happily found a sweetheart of his own. He has never responded to me in any way other than as a […]
A Walk in the Park
“I am great sun but you do not see me. I am your husband but you turn away. I am the captive but you do not free me. I am the captain but you do not obey. I am the truth but you do not believe me. I am that city where you will not […]
Joy Springs Up in Unexpected Places
Do you know the sound the cartoon dog makes when he shoots his head straight up and suddenly becomes aware of something? And his warm, sweet and goofy awareness changes everything and comically moves the story forward? Well – I am making that sound – dumb lovable feisty me. I am suddenly aware that I […]
Monkeying around with Religion
“The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we see in them.” Thomas MertonThomas Merton was a trappist monk of the Abbey of Gethsemani, Kentucky, he was a poet, mystic and a student of […]
Valentine’s Day
I do not fit snugly into a world built on principles of clock time and corporeal senses alone. I may appear eccentric if I write about things like “straddling eternity.” But it is in the effemera I feel most hardy. My strength seems to build upon itself in the light of my spirit. What do […]
A Messy Life
My life has made (and is making) a transition as we speak from orderly to NOT. And I am becoming accustomed to it somehow. Through grief I have warmed to uncertainty. Is this why folks want religion – to acquaint themselves with the roiling of life? And to make friends with it? I recall letting […]
Collaborating with Doubt
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves…” ~ Rilke In agreeing to Collaborate with what is, rather than combat it, I arrive at a warm and welcoming threshold. Even if ‘what is’ is uncomfortable. Not sure why, but I have been working against myself. I confoundedly keep […]
Allowing the Now
Was it courageous for Michael to choose not to seek treatment? Was it courageous for me to be by his side and help him as his illness ran the table? Not knowing if we had 6 weeks or 6 months – it was a time of uber conscious living in the Now.After making his choice, […]
