Tears don’t just come for no reason. There is something that pushes them out. I know I am still grieving, but I am having a hard time thinking grief is the only reason I am crying right now. Is it because I am experiencing glimpses of loving again in a new way? An all inclusive vulnerable way that feels safe somehow because “with Love all things are possible.” Kinda feels a little profound-ish, but YES, this is exactly it!
Do you know the sound the cartoon dog makes when he shoots his head straight up and suddenly becomes aware of something? And his warm, sweet and goofy awareness changes everything and comically moves the story forward?
Well – I am making that sound – dumb lovable feisty me. I am suddenly aware that I am very open to allowing a loving universe help me resolve my challenges in surprising ways!
I know this is accurate because the convulsion of painful emotion stopped once I chose to see the truth beneath the tears. Wow – that was cool! (You get this way, this sensitivity, by having cried a lot – by the way.)
I used to share my Love with just my hubby – but know it seems I am cultivating a new experience of Love. It feels alien and very familiar at the same time. I am being lovable, loving and loved with, to and by everyone!
I wonder what this all means? I wonder if this miraculous life of mine is finally blooming right here in late February like the unexpected daffodils in my backyard? These silly flowers are in the wrong place. They have blossomed in the center of a new path I installed last year. But they are bright spots of yellow in an otherwise dreary winter scape just the same. They speak to me about unexpected joy.
Frankly, I will take what I can get. I have had a very tough year and a half. “Hey Universe, Thank You. And let’s get ready to R – U – M – B – L – E !” Bring on your multiplicity of synchronistic & unexpected miracles! I am ready to be amazed and happy again! I am willing to enjoy Joy wherever it shows up on MY new path.
Are you willing to just allow Joy?
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