organism [awr-guh-niz-uh m] noun 1. a form of life composed of mutually interdependent parts that maintain various vital processes. To be an organism in my own life; to confidently behave in my own best interest without doubt, fear or judgement; this is my NIRVANA. This is not a selfish aim for in being such a thing I eclipse that part of myself that gets in […]
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A meditation on Beauty
Look at the beauty all around you. Or just look at one thing that is beautiful to you. Really take note of each bit and piece of the thing that is beauty to you. Now – close your eyes and recreate the thing – see the shape and the texture and the variations of color […]
Dissolving the Ego
Dissolving the Ego is like selling the first car you ever owned. You are attached to it. You have depended on it to take you places since… forever It is how you move around, get attention, how you are able to carry all that stuff around with you wherever you go. How could you ever […]
Alchemy of Grief
Painful memories come at the strangest times. The memories aren’t painful, they are warm and joy filled. The pain comes when memory is wed to the current moment. Shopping for groceries I pass by the in store Starbucks. Michael always stopped at the retail display to hunt for dishwasher safe travel mugs. Not for himself, […]
Allowing the Now
Was it courageous for Michael to choose not to seek treatment? Was it courageous for me to be by his side and help him as his illness ran the table? Not knowing if we had 6 weeks or 6 months – it was a time of uber conscious living in the Now.After making his choice, […]
Pass the bread please
Self-Love is the bread of life. Bread, Original Watercolor by Linda Dallas http://www.appetite4art.com/linda_dallas_notecard_103.htm I am getting used to taking care of myself again. I did it before I was married. A burst of tears erupts as missing Michael pushes forward. He had my back. Who has my back now asks my tears? I must have my […]
I will not sugar coat it for you
Look – I will not sugar coat it for you, if you will not sugar coat it for me. This is Authenticity. “Authentic carries a connotation of authoritative certification that an object is what it is claimed to be.” From dictionary.com I can mostly be counted on to be authentic, except when I am unsure of […]
Like never before
Even though I am just a confused as ever, I am ready now to find right work. And I choose a project with soul in mind…one that directly conjures higher expansion.I came across a term recently that grabbed my attention – “The bardos.” Bardo is a Tibetan word which literally means “in-between.” and connotes the wisdom of […]
A more open heart
The mind putters about, while the heart knows. The mind juggles while the heart contains. I am placing my heart upfront to filter all that comes my way today. I awoke heavily affected. What is happening here? I want that free flow and connected feeling please, not this curio shop filled with matter and transactions […]
Love, onesize fits all…BIG!
When I was younger, before I found Love, I only knew the empty space where Love was not. I walked around throwing everything at the empty space. Some things made it in, some did not. I came close a few times, a few boys, a few men, even a career temporarily filled me up. But […]
Far-Fetched Ideas
“That is a REALLY far-fetched idea,” she was told by someone somewhere once upon a time. But who cares. It is a place to start. If we hold back in our imaginary places we are lost… without hope or at least moving forward only within our existing paradigms. Paradigm: Origin: 1475–85; Late Latin paradīgma […]
Fabricating a Life
When I was sick, before Michael died, he would make me a cup of tea if I asked him to. Not anymore. And when I was sick and he came to bed, if he saw I had scarfed one of his pillows he would say plainly, “Come on – give it up.” And he would […]
