“…before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream.” ~from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho Perhaps […]
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Hurdles – Present and Past
I have a thirsty fish in methat can never find enough of what it’s thirsty for!~ Rumi This was my father. He passed away 5 days ago. He was 75 and I loved him very much and I know he loved me. And even though I have 2 years experience in the grief department and because I […]
Clarity 2.0
Clarity is a fleeting pain in the ass. The prevailing winds change, clarity gently brushes against your cheek, then drifts on. So you better be ready for it or it may just pass you by like it never happened. What do I believe? Getting clear here will help me move to the next level in […]
Dissolving the Ego
Dissolving the Ego is like selling the first car you ever owned. You are attached to it. You have depended on it to take you places since… forever It is how you move around, get attention, how you are able to carry all that stuff around with you wherever you go. How could you ever […]
Allowing the Now
Was it courageous for Michael to choose not to seek treatment? Was it courageous for me to be by his side and help him as his illness ran the table? Not knowing if we had 6 weeks or 6 months – it was a time of uber conscious living in the Now.After making his choice, […]
I will not sugar coat it for you
Look – I will not sugar coat it for you, if you will not sugar coat it for me. This is Authenticity. “Authentic carries a connotation of authoritative certification that an object is what it is claimed to be.” From dictionary.com I can mostly be counted on to be authentic, except when I am unsure of […]
Like never before
Even though I am just a confused as ever, I am ready now to find right work. And I choose a project with soul in mind…one that directly conjures higher expansion.I came across a term recently that grabbed my attention – “The bardos.” Bardo is a Tibetan word which literally means “in-between.” and connotes the wisdom of […]
A more open heart
The mind putters about, while the heart knows. The mind juggles while the heart contains. I am placing my heart upfront to filter all that comes my way today. I awoke heavily affected. What is happening here? I want that free flow and connected feeling please, not this curio shop filled with matter and transactions […]
Love, onesize fits all…BIG!
When I was younger, before I found Love, I only knew the empty space where Love was not. I walked around throwing everything at the empty space. Some things made it in, some did not. I came close a few times, a few boys, a few men, even a career temporarily filled me up. But […]
Far-Fetched Ideas
“That is a REALLY far-fetched idea,” she was told by someone somewhere once upon a time. But who cares. It is a place to start. If we hold back in our imaginary places we are lost… without hope or at least moving forward only within our existing paradigms. Paradigm: Origin: 1475–85; Late Latin paradīgma […]
Fabricating a Life
When I was sick, before Michael died, he would make me a cup of tea if I asked him to. Not anymore. And when I was sick and he came to bed, if he saw I had scarfed one of his pillows he would say plainly, “Come on – give it up.” And he would […]
In the stillness I remain…for now
In the stillness I remain until my song is ready to be sung. That is what ‘Course in Miracles lady’ said when I inquired about the nature of Grief. She spoke freely about the nature of Anger during her brief workshop. But she said not a word about Grief until I approached her afterward. She […]
