“As long as you do not know what you are experiencing inside, you are asleep in your life, even though you may think you are very awake.” ~gary zukav Protection has got me thinking and feeling small. Rejection is fresh and overt as I begin to date again. It is harder than I thought it […]
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APRIL’S FOOL – and Every Other Month for that Matter!
“The words you speak become the house you live in.” ~Hafiz It happened again. I felt really small again and all my accomplishments-to-date were negated by my judgemental mind. I cannot tell you how it started. All I know is one minute I was having a great day then I felt it melt away. It […]
We Are All Veterans
“When the Indian saint Ramakrishna was asked why there is evil in the world, he answered, “To thicken the plot.” These very plot thickeners, often the most difficult and insistent ones, can lead us to open our bodies, hearts, and minds.” ~ from A Path with Heart by Jack Kornfield We are all veterans. We all have some […]
Pumpkin Bread
He loved Pumpkin Bread. He loved a lot of specific things. He knew what he liked because after much living and much thinking about living he made a point to extract the wheat from the chaff. He knew by practical experimentation which things worked best and he held tight to those things. So I always […]
Perfectly Imperfect!!
Yes – it feels good to see how life is unfolding warts and all; to generate appreciation for a stubbed toe or a missed class. There are six pots in my second story window box and one is not getting water due to an out-of-joint drip line. So a little dry brown sprig of dead Asparagus […]
The Hard Work of Feeling
“…establish that role to be a listener to the mystery…” ~ ram dass I have been caught again by my own tear ducts. They have felt the need to do what they do and I have to decide if I want to let them do it. Not fully appreciating that in letting them have their […]
Joy Springs Up in Unexpected Places
Do you know the sound the cartoon dog makes when he shoots his head straight up and suddenly becomes aware of something? And his warm, sweet and goofy awareness changes everything and comically moves the story forward? Well – I am making that sound – dumb lovable feisty me. I am suddenly aware that I […]
Get Busy Livin’
“Life presses upon us, forever challenging us with new forms of vitality that threaten the status quo which feels so good with its stability and peace. Religions seem to hate Pan and his vitality. Often, they prefer the death principle. Let things be as they always have been. No intrusions of vitality, please. I think […]
Square 1
I am hoping this day finds you well and well loved in your lovely abode. I wrote this about one year ago. Seems appropriate to revisit it for I am feeling like I am here again – at square 1 – today. February 10, 2013 I am approaching the beginning of week 3 of experiment Lani. […]
Emotions are like Black & White Cookies
Have you ever had a Black and White cookie? It is the official baked good of Manhattan and perhaps some places in New Jersey as well. It is a soft cake-like cookie the size of a newborn’s head. On top it is iced with both a chocolate and vanilla icing and has a striking hard […]
Alchemy of Grief
Painful memories come at the strangest times. The memories aren’t painful, they are warm and joy filled. The pain comes when memory is wed to the current moment. Shopping for groceries I pass by the in store Starbucks. Michael always stopped at the retail display to hunt for dishwasher safe travel mugs. Not for himself, […]
