“As long as you do not know what you are experiencing inside, you are asleep in your life, even though you may think you are very awake.” ~gary zukav
Protection has got me thinking and feeling small. Rejection is fresh and overt as I begin to date again. It is harder than I thought it would be after losing my husband to illness almost 3 years ago.
I have done the work. I have opened myself up and have reaped many rewards – brand new friendships, awesome new experiences and a boat load of new emotions & feelings. But it seems there is still more work to do. Alas as I drill down even more deeply I am finding more growing… and more pain.
There is this idea lurking deep down inside me that no one will ever love me again the way my husband loved me. The way we loved each other. And perhaps, I have to admit, I will never love again the way I loved him.
Does this mean all my efforts so far are useless? Or am I just arrived at yet another level for potential healing?
My experience tells me I must allow these deep feelings a voice. I acknowledged these feelings as I watched them express themselves sideways as my own self-judgement and tears.
Reflecting on these ideas, “my truths,” makes way for new beliefs to take hold. I acknowledge “these truths” may not be so true so I can cleanse myself of limiting beliefs.
Reflecting on these ideas, “my truths,” makes way for new beliefs to take hold. I acknowledge “these truths” may not be so true so I can cleanse myself of limiting beliefs.
And most importantly, I acknowledge these “truths” so I may move forward with love and compassion for my predicament and towards new better ways that serve my deepest desire for amazement, freedom and joy this year!
Jack Kornfield says, “Wise spiritual practice requires that we actively address the pain and conflict of our life.”
Jack Kornfield says, “Wise spiritual practice requires that we actively address the pain and conflict of our life.”
Like a spring bulb I must want to grow to break through the mud and earth toward my newly blossoming self! Just did not figure it would hurt so much…again.
What light is hidden from you by the dark?
Tag, You’re It!
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