“By extending our ordinary feelings of love and concern beyond their usual biased limits, love is freed from the restrictions of attachment.” ~ HHDL Finding attachment to be the source of many of my tears, I am intrigued by this quote. Grieving loss or Fear of losing something to which I am attached appears suddenly […]
Legendary
You are now a legend. Half real half made up. We see you in our minds, in the stories we tell and the few pictures you allowed. We have you just as we wish and you are not here to defend yourself. Or correct us. We see a memory – which you always maintained can […]
Alligators or Recognizing Consciousness
Being awake has it’s own kind of feeling. It is still and at the same time alive with great power and energy, kind of like an alligator. There is a heightened awareness, your senses are acute but less necessary as you see more clearly past the obvious to the unseen nature of things. In this […]
Clarity 2.0
Clarity is a fleeting pain in the ass. The prevailing winds change, clarity gently brushes against your cheek, then drifts on. So you better be ready for it or it may just pass you by like it never happened. What do I believe? Getting clear here will help me move to the next level in […]
Memory Lapses
Would I prefer to lose my memories than to suffer through the grieving process? Just for a moment I’ll give this notion some extra attention. The idea swam into my head after reading about a man who’s doctor/friend annually gives him an end of year check up. It is an informal question and answer thing, […]
Humility
“To find the balance you want, this is what you must become. You must keep your feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it’s like you have 4 legs instead of 2. That way, you can stay in the world. But you must stop looking at the world through your head. You must look […]
Emotions are like Black & White Cookies
Have you ever had a Black and White cookie? It is the official baked good of Manhattan and perhaps some places in New Jersey as well. It is a soft cake-like cookie the size of a newborn’s head. On top it is iced with both a chocolate and vanilla icing and has a striking hard […]
Winter Solstice Blessing
Shed away your tired old coats my darlings. Shed the tearsthat tear you from within.Like a snakewho has outgrown her skin,writhe and scrapeuntil the dull old scalesfall away.Slough off the remnantsof your worn-out self.Peel away the layersthat no longer suit you,that constrict you,so a shiny,smooth,lissome youemerges.Glide effortlesslyinto the new yearadaptable,flexible,amenable,joyful.Enter your new beginningwith grace,warm, bright, […]
Tell Me Everything will be OK
A deer chose my house this week. He found a soft pile of leaves on the protected side of the yard, a refuge in the tightly bound space between two fences and my house. There was a complete break. I saw the bone to his back left hoof jutting out from his leg. The pain […]
Proximity Always Wins!
Our attention naturally goes to what is nearest. I see, smell and touch the matter at hand. My vision is acclimatized by my experiences so I essentially choose what I see. But the Imperceptibles, those higher vibrational energies like emotion and the eternal qualities of Love, Grace, Joy, Harmony, Illumination, Creativity… you get the picture… […]
Good Work and Wonder
Woke up concerned with everyday life. The unperturbed flow of living. The feed the dog, pour milk on the cereal, kiss goodbye, go to work life. I love this life. I miss this life. I have gotten too used to living lopsided. Shoved side to side by wide capriciously swaying emotions, I am ready to […]
Happy Holidays?
The holidays are a time that gets lots of traffic at the Feeling Depot. When you are grieving it feels like there is a train that leaves every hour. I am working very hard to not leave the station and just let the trains come and go as they must. Keeping grounded this way moves […]
