“What if this is what it looks like while my dream of the end of Apartheid is happening? What if my being in this very situation is… part of… my overcoming?”~Nelson Mandela about his imprisonment“Just how do we deal with agitations of the dark? How do we make our way through the tangle of being […]
acceptance
A Messy Life
My life has made (and is making) a transition as we speak from orderly to NOT. And I am becoming accustomed to it somehow. Through grief I have warmed to uncertainty. Is this why folks want religion – to acquaint themselves with the roiling of life? And to make friends with it? I recall letting […]
Resistance
Lots of pain and lots of tears and lots of strategies employed to get through a rough patch. I am so weary of revisiting these dark places. But by claiming and naming them, by the simple passage of time, and with help from those who care about me – I am slowly coming back […]
Tête-à-Tête
“Beauvoir lent Maheu a recent English novel she had enjoyed, The Green Hat, by Michael Arlen. She admired its independent heroine, Iris Storm. Maheu did not. ‘I have no liking for women of easy virtue,’ he told her. ‘Much as I like a woman to please me, I find it impossible to respect any woman […]
Square 1
I am hoping this day finds you well and well loved in your lovely abode. I wrote this about one year ago. Seems appropriate to revisit it for I am feeling like I am here again – at square 1 – today. February 10, 2013 I am approaching the beginning of week 3 of experiment Lani. […]
Fabricating a Life
When I was sick, before Michael died, he would make me a cup of tea if I asked him to. Not anymore. And when I was sick and he came to bed, if he saw I had scarfed one of his pillows he would say plainly, “Come on – give it up.” And he would […]
“So what do you do?”
Contemplating how to answer the question, “So what do you do?”I can say any number of things. “I am an artist. I am on sabbatical. I am on an artistic pleasure cruise. I am healing from a great loss. I am recovering after my husband’s death.” The Truth is “I spend my time lifting the veil […]
