“I am great sun but you do not see me. I am your husband but you turn away. I am the captive but you do not free me. I am the captain but you do not obey. I am the truth but you do not believe me. I am that city where you will not […]
deliberate choices
Enlightment at Gunpoint
Looking back, my Religious/Spiritual timeline begins with casual Sunday School for one summer followed by communion and a photo of me in a dress in front of a huge pink azalea. NO inner connections were made. Everything was external and ceremonial. During my teen years I was hit by a car and felt my soul […]
Thinking About Contemplation
I am struck by the difference in the participants when one contemplates verses when one meditates. It seems to me meditation requires joyous wide and vast emptiness and contemplation joyously lets in all comers. Both allow for emergence of higher understanding. Both require an acknowledgement of an inner life and willingness to see. I am […]
A Messy Life
My life has made (and is making) a transition as we speak from orderly to NOT. And I am becoming accustomed to it somehow. Through grief I have warmed to uncertainty. Is this why folks want religion – to acquaint themselves with the roiling of life? And to make friends with it? I recall letting […]
Collaborating with Doubt
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves…” ~ Rilke In agreeing to Collaborate with what is, rather than combat it, I arrive at a warm and welcoming threshold. Even if ‘what is’ is uncomfortable. Not sure why, but I have been working against myself. I confoundedly keep […]
“So what do you do?”
Contemplating how to answer the question, “So what do you do?”I can say any number of things. “I am an artist. I am on sabbatical. I am on an artistic pleasure cruise. I am healing from a great loss. I am recovering after my husband’s death.” The Truth is “I spend my time lifting the veil […]
