“The wound is the place where the light enters you.” ~rumi
I worked really hard on becoming numb in all the acceptable ways. I turned on the television and watched familiar shows until they just became color and noise. I ate and ate and ate until there was no more empty room left on the inside of me. At one point I even had things that I had put in my mouth coming out in the other direction. It just happened once, just when I coughed, just for a moment – nothing serious. So I actually dismissed it as an accident, a fluke, a freak occurrence and not as a manifestation of something ‘needing to come up.’ And then to make sure my numbing was complete I stayed up way too late.